April 15, 2019
I thought it time to post a brief update as I’m told many of my friends have wondered what happened and what is going on. On December 27th, 2018 I attempted to end my life after more than a year of using methamphetamine I lost more than 100 pounds and currently experience body tremors, mild psychosis in the form of hallucinations, memory loss and ongoing insomnia and depression.
My addiction initially ended a 16 year relationship and cost more than $25,000 resulting in insolvency caused by the use of high interest loans. I do not post this because I am proud or boasting.
I post this because I am ashamed of what I have done and what I became and ask those who I have harmed for forgiveness. I would do anything for the drug, now I must do anything for my sobriety. I was a resident of Brentwood Recovery Home where I was discharged and relapsed within 45 minutes. I am currently at Homewood Health Centre where i am receiving psychiatric and addictions treatment. I expect to be released by June 1st when I will continue treatment at the Concurrent Mental Health Issues and Addictions program at Hotel Dieu Grace Hospital.
While addiction is a disease, I must accept responsibility for what I have done. At every point I made a choice and at every point I chose a drug that was silently killing me over those who loved and cared about me. For that I am deeply sorry and must accept that I cannot change the past but I can change the future.Thank you for your words support and love.They touched me deeply.
