May 20, 2019
Only by getting better do I see how sick I was.
My routine was thrown out of whack, and like dominos I began to lose control and shut down.
I was so tired I fell asleep and missed both NA and my drug test. I could have set my alarm but I did not.
This is how addiction works.
It may be just one time my schedule fell apart, but the addict mind uses that to justify future transgressions which ultimately leads to relapse.
I need to be accountable and that means doing whatever it takes to stay on schedule to ensure it does not happen again.
I have to live life on life’s terms. No exceptions.
