July 10, 2019
Before and during my active addiction I would listen to myself speak and say wow, why am I so negative?
Part of the reason was both depression and situational depression, but the rest? In the beginning I brought this negativity to the NA rooms.
A friend remarked, “Why are you being so hard on yourself?”
I stopped and listened to how people with years of clean time spoke and realised they spoke to the solution rather than the problem.
So I began speaking to solutions to my own (usually self-made) problems and my attitude and outlook is beginning to change.
People respond positively to positivity and moreover solutions are easier to find. It isn’t always easy, but I ask myself, am I adding any value to the conversation?
If not, it is probably better I simply listen.
