May 21, 2019
165 white key tags.
That is journey of one addict I met tonight.
A white key tag is given to the addict who is coming to NA for the first time, from a relapse, or recommitting to the program.
Recovery is not easy-peasy, it’s fucking hard – and that’s not self-pity, that’s reality.
One simply does not wake up one day and say, “Hey I wanna be a drug addict” nor does one wake up one day and say “Hey I’m cured.”
Recovery is that back country road full of road blocks, pot holes, detours and dead ends, and it’s so tempting to take the nicely paved highway because it’s easier.
Recovery is facing your fears, your pain, and looking at yourself in the mirror and saying YOU ARE WORTH MORE.
This man, 165 times, never stopped trying and today he is 17 months clean.
He inspired me tonight. I am not special in that I am any different or any worse off than another. We are all the same in that no matter what, recovery is possible if I commit to it.
38 days clean and I promise myself 39.
One day at a time.
Goodnight and be kind to each other.
