June 19, 2019
I am grateful I am clean. I am grateful to be alive.
Tonight’s Cocaine Anonymous meeting was powerful. So much power in a small room.
It was also challenging.
Just outside the door were dozens of men hoping to find shelter for the night. Some tweaking, others in states of psychosis, and still others inebriated and sleeping where they fell.
My heart went out to them all and yet at the the same time I was overcome with sadness and fear.
Fear that that could be me at any point if I do not remain viligent, care for myself, and know with my heart that I am worthy of all that is good.
I pray tonight for these lost men. I pray they live another day to say enough is enough.
But I did it. Came home, meditated, and now am calm.
Good night my friends.
