May 8, 2019
Trying to be positive and remind myself of how far I’ve come.
But last night, I had a “using” dream and woke up this morning wanting to use.
These dreams are so vivid.
So real.
So real in fact the injection sites on my arms hurt.
I hate this.
Addiction is awful.
This is what happened before my last relapse and it scares the fuck out of me.
But I am stronger than I was.
I will not relapse.
I will persevere.
I have to.
There is no other option.
