October 10, 2019
I was very aware of the consequences of my last relapse. That inner turmoil, should I or shouldn’t I, do it don’t do it.
My addict self said, you can manage the consequences. Oh the lies I tell myself.
It is said that there are consequences to every action. Before I got clean, I simply didn’t believe this. But now I know exactly what it means. When I act, I know there will be consequences to pay. No longer can I decide to do something in ignorance when I know full well that I won’t like the price I’ll have to pay. There’s a prize and a price.
It’s okay to act despite the consequences if I am willing to pay the price, but there’s always one to pay.
Just for Today: I will think about the consequences of my actions before I take them.
