Conversations With An Addict Brain

November 10, 2019

Me (M): Good morning!
Addict Brain(A): What’s so good about it? I’m tired let’s go back to bed. It’s warm there.
M: Naw, I have things to do.
A: Like what? It can all wait until tomorrow, or the next day, even next week.
M: I want to go see Mary …
A: Lol. That bitch? She doesn’t like you, you know. She feels sorry for you, in fact …
M: That’s not true. We went out all day last week and had a great talk, some cries …
A: What a loser you are. You’re a grown man. Stop your fucking crying.
M: You know what, I’m going for a walk …
A: Walk? Oh! Great idea! Wanna go down to the river and up to Bruce Avenue?
M: Why would I go that far …
A: Well …
M: Oh wait, hell no!
A: Why not? Let’s go talk to a real man, pick up a few points, come back here and …
M: Fuck off! I am going downstairs and getting some breakfast.
A: I’m coming too fatso!
M: No shit, you don’t say! And I’m not fat!
A: Fuck man, you could have your own postal code. Second thought, area code!
M: So what, I’ve put on some weight. You nearly killed me.
A: True, I got a bit carried away. But you are getting fat, dough-boy.
M: Yeah, true. Not liking the look.
A: We don’t have to do a lot, stick to smoking it, no syringes, the weight will melt away like the cheese on that sandwich you won’t eat for weeks.
M: True. I’ve been to rehab now 3 times, I could probably control it, drink lots of water …
A: Now we’re talking. What you sayin’? Go for that walk now?
M: Yeah. Let’s go.
A: Fuck yeah, it’ll be fun, you’ll see. We can stop at Ace, and pick up a Valentine …
M: What the hell am I doing listening to you for? I’m going to the gym.
A: Damn man, me too. Need to do some push ups and press some iron. All this rehab you’ve been going to is making me weak.
M: Man, I gotta call my sponsor.
A: You do that girly man. We’ll go to the gym. You won’t be able to resist my ripped abs and biceps then!
M: Hey, Dan…I’m craving bad, wanna go for coffee?

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Author: Chris

I left the hateful rhetoric of Facebook to come here to carry a message of hope and healing I'm in recovery from addiction and rebuilding a life filled with purpose and creativity. Whether I'm playing the piano, baking, gardening, or knitting, I’ve found healing in the simple, meaningful moments. Buzz Kill Diaries is where I share honest reflections on recovery - one day at a time.

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