November 7, 2019
Just last week I viewed myself a failure. I was triggered and thought about using. This turned inward as self-hate and self-pity screaming silently in my head, “Is this what life has come to be?” living with trigger after trigger, fighting every moment and hating the happiness around me?
No! Only if I choose to allow hate to fill my heart. The more I choose to love others, the more I begin to love myself. The more I love myself, the more others love themselves. If I see the love and happiness in others, I begin to see that light in me. If I choose to see darkness in others, I see only darkness in me.
My struggle with addiction in turn, is a struggle with love, more so, an absence of self love. I have to remember I cannot blame myself or anyone for this.
I must set the past and myself free.
